Blockage

Mental Blockage, that is.

I haven't updated this blog in quite a long time - probably the longest writing hiatus I've taken since I started this weblog almost two years ago.

It's not for lack of things to write about. I mean, I've got our whole leaky roof situation, the holidays, poker I've played, the puppytoes.net store, stuff we want to do to the house... lots of stuff. But one thing has been keeping me from sitting down and actually writing something. A complete and total mental blockage.

For example, I played in two large poker tournaments and several home games since my last post. Each time I'd sit down to write about them, any kind of coherent thought would completely vacate my head. I'm empty, running on fumes. And I was hoping that forcing myself to sit down now would perhaps start nipping away at that blockage.

It's not working.

And it's not just with writing. At work I've been easily distracted and uninspired. At home I'm just doing what has to be done to get by. It's like my days are reduced to the same routine: wake up late, take Cragar out to pee and feed him, get ready and go to work, come home from work, make dinner, clean up dinner dishes, take out trash, watch a little TV, then try to sleep so I don't wake up late again the next morning. That's it. Blah.

But I'm not sleeping well, either. I'll come home from work exhausted and go through the motions until it's time for bed. Then it's like a little switch is thrown and I'm wide awake. Wide awake with really nothing to do. So I'm averaging about 4 or so hours a night sleep and I'm becoming increasingly sensitive to things like full moonlight streaming in the window or Dave's snoring - making falling asleep even more difficult.

A vacation would be nice, where it would be perfectly acceptable to have a vacant mind for awhile, where I don't have to worry if I'm going to wake up late again or even look at a clock for that matter. It's been a long time since our last good vacation.

Anyway, I just had to make this basically nonsensical post to start to break the blockage. I was hoping that in the course of writing a bunch of stuff would just come flooding out, but it's not happening yet.

Yea, a vacation sounds good.